Whenever I develop feelings for somebody, my mind always ends up a really fucked up place. I do not understand at all. Right now my chest feels ridiculously heavy for no reason and my mind feels stressed. I have absolutely no reason to be, there is nothing for me to even be worried about at this stage. Things haven’t even progressed over the 12 year old crush stage and at the moment he doesn’t have a fucking clue. I’ve posted a few photo’s on my other tumblr that may possibly help him to work it out but i’m not willing to tell him. We’re getting drunk together on Tuesday, so maybe i’ll confess it all then and then act like I was fucked if he thinks i’m a dick. I dunno. He’s madly in love with his ex so I know that right now isn’t the right time. I don’t really know what to do. If I don’t act upon it i’ll feel like shit, if I do act upon it and it goes wrong i’ll feel like shit. I can’t win. Fuck life sometimes.